In memory of Dad dot Strange


My dad died today- he raised me the best he could as he was in and out of Veterans hospitals as he was injured while in the Navy- he was an artist who got Parkinsons disease and couldn't control his hands anymore-that happened when I was still a kid- I hadn't seen him for seven years before I saw him on his death bed-

He was never able to support his family in his situation which I'm sure wore on him- so when he was dying I told him I was thankful to him for the great genetics he gave me as my intuition told me a father would feel guilty that he had nothing to leave his son- he said "ok" and grabbed my hand-



I felt failed as a son as I never had enough money to take care of him better as he was in a crappy care home at the end of his life but I chose the path of the artist and thats the path I walk on so I have no regrets-

I never had one straight conversation with my dad as he talked in ciphers- so there'll be things I'll always wonder about- but I like a little mystery-


I'd like to think that since I grew up to be an artist- I'll paint his greatest work of art with my accomplishments in creativity as his son.

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  1. Sorry to hear that, man. Losing a dad is rough. You always hear people say "not a day goes by," when speaking of loved ones, but it's really true that not a day goes by when I don't think of my old man. Dads loom so large when you're little, when they go, it's like someone just plucked a mountain off the landscape with no explanation.

    Keep your chin up, Strange.

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  2. "To those who went on ahead."
    (raises beer glass)

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  3. This is rough, and stuff like this usually takes a while to fully process. Hang in there M Dot Strange.

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  4. You got my heartfelt sympathy M.
    I fear the day my parents will die more than anything else.
    Sending you and your family all the best wishes.

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  5. So very sorry to hear about your loss. I have not had to suffer this yet , but I do remember the night my grandmother died. I composed a song that night (in memory i guess) and to this day think of her when it happens on my radar.

    take a few minutes and make something., even if you do not ever share it with anyone , it will be something that will have special meaning to you and bring you joy through the years.

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  6. Dude, that is awful. I' am sorry to hear that.

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  7. I'm sorry to read about your Dad, M dot. I know you had an ambiguous relationship with him, but it still must hurt when your father dies. I send my support and love to you. You have many friends any one of which would stand by you if you need their support. You've given us all so much with your imagination and ideas.

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  8. Just watched your speech at the la convention thing. It really put into perspective how much you have accomplished in life. It's so great that your father got to see you evolve into a BAWSE. I'm sure he was proud his son grew up to create such powerful works as an artist.


    Rest in Peace

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  9. My Heart goes out to you my friend, I can only imagine the pride he felt for you following your dreams as an artist. Peace be upon you and your home- Your a credit to the human race

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  10. Mdot, I truly am sorry and my deepest condolences to you and your family for your loss. It is inspiring to see how your father has left a mark in his legacy through his son now that you have become what he always strived to do. Your father and you have inspired me to continue to grow and share my art with others - now that I just had my first son recently it gives me an inspirational story. We are with you in this time of grief Mike.

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  11. He is going on to the next phase.

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  12. As a dad I can say I don't believe my son could ever "fail" me, no matter how he turns out.
    All I can do is assume maybe your dad thought the same.

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  13. It makes me sad to hear this Mdots, but I know you are a strong dude and won't let this or anything else hold you back. Much love.

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  14. My condolences, really sorry to hear this.

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  15. I´m really sorry to hear this. I hope the pain heals rapidly and know that even not though I don´t know you personally my thoughts are with you.

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  16. Sorry for your loss Mdot.
    You have followed the path that he wanted to follow but was unable to. With you his dream lives on, and perhaps this was even a source of hope, happiness and peace in his final years and moments.
    If there is an afterlife, I'm sure his spirit will be looking out for you from beyond our world. What ever the case, he lives on through you, through your accomplishments, through your actions, through your blood and through the rest of his family and the effects that he had on those he knew and the world. In the long run, his passing may make you even stronger.

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  17. Really sorry to hear this Mike. Best wishes to you and yr family, my friend.

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  18. I really sympathize with you. Praying that you find courage.

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